Ireland Baldwin went to the hospital 20 times for what she believed to be heart attacks

Ireland Baldwin is pulling back the curtain on her mental-health journey.

The model and daughter of exes Alec Baldwin and Kim Basinger spoke to Willow Smith on “Red Table Talk” about struggling with anxiety, including her struggle with cardiophobia.

As part of the anxiety disorder, defined as a fear of having a heart attack and dying, people tend to complain of cardiac issues including chest pain and heart palpitations, according to a paper published by the National Library of Medicine.

“I have a fear of my own heartbeat. So when it starts getting really fast, even when I’m nervous — even slightly nervous, or if I exercise or anything, I start panicking to the point where I’m convinced, no matter what anyone says, I’m gonna have a heart attack,” said Baldwin, whose mom later joined her on the Facebook Watch show. “So I’ve had maybe over 20 hospital visits in my life for a doctor to basically come in and tell me that my heart’s fine and my health is great.

“But it’s so crippling because everyone kind of looks at you like, ‘You’re young and fit and healthy, you’re fine,’” she said. “But the ‘you’re fine,’ I want to deck people in the face that tell me I’m fine, or to breathe.”

Baldwin explained that as a child, she witnessed a stranger suffer a heart attack in a restaurant: “That messed me up. I think that image never left my head, ever.”

She also opened up about having been physically abused in a relationship, and learning she, too, was an abuser — albeit not physical. She also described the “total breaking point” she reached that saw her “self-medicating with Xanax and alcohol.”

“I had no control in anything in my life. I tortured myself with my eating disorders I had. I didn’t talk to my parents for like a year. I saw them here and there, but I was so ashamed of what I had become and how I was living and like I just became this different person. I was emaciated in every way, I was lifeless — just like my soul,” said Baldwin, who credits cousin Alaia Baldwin, big sister of Hailey, with changing everything.

“I think I would’ve committed suicide or I would’ve been dead. I was so close. I could feel it getting to that point. And she saved my life, she pulled me out of it,” said Baldwin.

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